I'm going to throw a fit

[Chastity]

I need to rant. BADLY. Ever since I got out of the hospital, I have become a cranky bitch. The more doctors I see, the more I become annoyed with our health care system. Of course, I'm not talking about all doctors (without some amazing doctors, I would not be alive right now)--the doctors in the hospital seemed far nicer than the ones I've seen in clinics and such.

Yesterday, I saw a doctor for an entirely different issue that had nothing to do with my hospitalization (it is insane--sometimes you can wait up to a year for an appointment)and he was intrigued by the fact that I was hospitalized and released last week.

This was the meanest, most arrogant bastard of a doctor I had ever encountered. I can't even call him a doctor because he was so mean.

Everything that came out of my mouth, he argued against. He wanted to know why I was in the hospital. I told him. I told him about my blood tranfusions. He goes "were you in the emergency?" I replied "I got my blood transfusions in the Intensive Care." He laughed his condescending laugh and said "they don't treat pneumonia in the IC." Arggghhh. I was there. You weren't. Where the fuck were you when I was in the hospital? Talking out of your ass and treating your patients like shit in this cozy little office of yours, that's where. Don't argue against something you know nothing about.

When he saw my atrocious blood test results, he said "I've never seen this. What are you doing? What happened? No 20 year old girl walks in with results like this."

"Doctor, I'm sure it's me being vegan--" The doctor interrupts (honestly, how unprofessional can you get?!)

"There are indians who are vegans and they don't eat dairy."

Oh really, doc? Then what is yogurt, cheese, and ghee (sp?)(indian butter) doing in their cuisine? Do I have to give you a crash course on what's dairy and what's not? By the way, most indians are vegetarians--not vegans. Some are vegans of course but most of them are vegetarian. How do I know this? Because I worked with Indians, I eat Indian food often and I have an Indian uncle. I know I sound as if I know it all, but obviously I don't know everything. I just don't like it when people have this arrogance and claim to be right when they are clearly wrong and can't admit to being wrong.

"Vegans don't have results like that. Are you doing drugs?"

"No, doctor. I'm sure it's the veganism! I was vegan for a few months. When I was vegetarian I wasn't like that. Veganism is the only thing I did that most likely messed up my body."

"Do you drink?"

"Occasionally, almost rarely."

"Well, throw it out because your liver is messed up. Do you take Advil?"

"I took it a few weeks ago." Thanks Dr. Hussain for fucking up my liver with Advil and antibiotics that I'm allergic to!

"Well, throw that out too. It can't be the veganism, you're doing something terribly wrong to produce results like this." Then he insisted I must be a drug user. That ought to tell you a lot about a doctor when they're making assumptions and judging you for decisions you never made.

Then he proceeded to condescendingly laugh in my face and say "you're going to die if you continue whatever it is you're doing." With that tone in your voice and condesceding smile on your face it is obvious you want that fate for me just so that my death would prove your point. It's one thing to have a doctor sympathetically tell you that you're going to die and it's another to have a doctor have this "I want this to happen to you" look on his face as he tells you you're going to die. He wanted me to break out into tears. He wanted me to feel sorry for myself. He wanted me to break the news to my family and friends and cry myself to sleep.

Well, fuck you, asshole. You're not a doctor. You are a bully who wants nothing but the worst for his patients. I may not be recovering as quickly as you want me to be but you know what? There are too many things that pointed to my potential death and I'm a firm believer in things happening for a reason. Sure, I was dead for a minute in the hospital but I was brought back to life. If it was my time, I would've stayed dead and my funeral would have already taken place. Soon enough, I will fully recover and be able to live my life happily. I don't have time to go throw myself on my bed and cry myself a river in my pillow. I have some recovery to do.

[Acetroubleshooter]

damn, what a horrible doctor!! lucky for you you saw the other doc who was nice to you

[fUx0r]

what a pig-fucker. i'd seriously take up this matter with hospital supervisors. he has no right to despense snide and condescending remarks to you like that. i don't understand how people like him find themselves in positions of caring for other humans. most phycisians are up there with croocked CEO's and lawyers.

[Chastity]

I knew all along he was a fucking moron! Today I had an appointment (yeah it's crazy I have so many appointments these days with all these doctors following up on me--but then again that's a good thing) with a doctor who had seen me during my stay. She was always an awesome doctor and one of the doctors who helped me stay alive.

Today, I didn't talk smack about Dr. Ohashi (that fucker--if you reside in Montreal, especially the suburbs don't see him!) and asked many questions. She told me the complete opposite. She was so reassuring and everything. She kept going "Sweetie, that's because you were sick."

"Those blood test results...it doesn't mean you're going to die (I didn't even mention that to her! It's as if she read my mind!), you were just very sick."

"The pneumonia must have affected your liver." (thus explaining why my liver is messed up)

Everything she told me made so much sense. I didn't even ask about the liver problem. It was as if she completely read my mind.

"Your x rays are back to normal! You no longer need to take drugs and you bounced back quickly. It's great. ;D"

I got some blood tests done and I'm praying they go back to normal.

But I knew it! I knew Dr.Ohashi was an idiot!

[Acetroubleshooter]

i really hope you're back at full health soon!!

[fUx0r]

yeah, chas. and nothing'll make you feel better then keying that ohashi guy's car. trust me. think of yourself as his karma's human manifestation.

[Chastity]

I can't believe he's associated and works in the hospital. Why was he not fired? Why has no one reported him? I was bitching about him to my mother today and she hates that I'm opinionated (she's the docile Asian mother who thinks we should not speak up for ourselves and that we should take shit from people) and I begged her to change doctors. I mean if half the stuff that came out of his mouth was a pile of shit, what is it out there that can possibly make him be the god of stomach doctors? Okay, I'll cut him a little slack that he doesn't even deserve: he seems to know his stuff in the stomach department but doesn't seem to know much else.

Oh yeah, to add to the list of imcompetent health workers, I had this one nurse in the Intensive Care. Oh what a whore she was. Thankfully I had her for a few hours (some nurses, I had for a few days). She's another to add to my shitlist.

When I was in the ICU, remember when I said I got really weak (if not, please consult my "That was the worst 3 weeks of my life!" thread) I was so weak, I even had to wear diapers. A 20 year old girl wearing diapers--not normal. Even sitting up was such a difficult task. Anyways, so I call for a nurse, this whore shows up and I said "Nurse, can you please help me sit up?" She looked at me and went "You can do it yourself!" Um. Listen, I am tired, I am weak and I am fucking sick. I don't want to duke it out with you--we can do that on my better days but I called you in for a reason--TO HELP ME SIT UP! Now, don't make me request another nurse since you've become a burden and a waste of space in this hospital.

So she comes over obviously unenthusiastic and helps me out. Later on, I woke up and found a puddle of pee on the floor. Now, I don't know if I accidentally peed on the floor and don't remember (I really don't remember peeing on the floor ) or if someone came in and peed on the floor--I don't know but I called for a nurse. The whore comes in again "Uh I just realized there's a puddle on the floor. I don't know if I did it or what but it has to be cleaned up." (By the way, I was being really polite with her--I was too weak to tell her off) She goes "I'm not cleaning that up--I'm calling housekeeping."

Most nurses don't even bother calling housekeeping and clean these things up themselves. Why the hell are you a nurse? You clearly don't enjoy helping people. This job sure pays well doesn't it? It's probably the only reason why you're here, you fucking whore. If I had the physical strength I would not be afraid at all to say those exact words to her (Sorry for this bitchiness. When I am mad I turn into an unrecognizable, evil bitch)

Housekeeping came probably about half an hour later. The old man was adorable. So cheerful for such a disgusting job. I felt bad for him but he was clearly enjoying himself. He exclaimed "Hello!" as soon as he walked in. He immediately put a smile on my face.

"I have no idea if I peed on the floor or if that was someone else."

"Oh don't worry about it! It doesn't matter whose pee that belongs to. "

Wow. This guy impressed me. I think that was my first smile of the day.

[Acetroubleshooter]

some nurses are just tired of working i think!
hehe i'm glad the old man put a smile upon your face

[karro]

I have so much to say about it. Im feeling tired now and I dont have time to tell my hospital escapades of the past years. This morning, I still woke up having my back non-straight. yeah my spine make a "S". cause of the incompetence of the healing system in Québec. After more over than 2 years. Why of it cause when I got my injury and felt down a cold floor in a public bathroom I had to wait for an ambulance 2 hours and half cuase they are too busy and the system cant furnish. I was lying in a bad position and I couldnt move cause of my back. Everytime I moved I had such electric choc going through my whole body. Let me tell you that it was the worst 2 hours and half of my life and that was just a simple beginning. Im only 26 years old and I cant believe that i have the back of a 70 years old lady. I gotta make my topic too cause ive never been able to scream it out of loud. That is too much for me to have my body scrap at 26 cause of the incompetence of the healing system. The worst in that its when the low back is in purpose people either doesnt believe you cause they cant see it or they just dont feel sorry for you. Im alone with that. Only my mom understand me cause she got artrose in her lowback since she is 6 years old and she told me: " that is it my daughter, when its about your back people doesnt believe you and dont understand how much painful and contraining it is to live with".

[fUx0r]

well, as canadians you're still lucky. we have to pay for our shity medical services. at least yours is free. haha.

[Chastity]

fUx0r said:

well, as canadians you're still lucky. we have to pay for our shity medical services. at least yours is free. haha.

Damn right. I'm so grateful for that. I was watching the Real World Chicago's season (yeah, I'm sure some of you are gagging ) and one of the roomates had all these health problems and these huge medical bills and she was always sobbing about the fact that she couldn't afford them. I believe an x ray is a thousand dollars from what I learned on the show. I actually felt bad for her and she was the bitchiest one (probably with good reason now that I think of it) I believe health care should be free. Then again the US tends to enjoy putting their priorities into other things. After all, they would rather fund the war and waste precious dollars that could be going to be much more substantial things.

Karro, I never felt back pain until I was at work and the new boss had made me carry these super heavy boxes (everyone else on the staff thought the boss was psycho) and that was my first experience with back pain. Not fun! My sister told me this true story about this one guy who went to see his doctor. He was very overweight and all his joints hurt and he was never able to excercise. He said "Doctor, I tried everything, nothing is working." The doctor said "I have this theory. Do you drink 8 glasses of water a day?"

The patient replied "No, I don't."

"Well, this is what you're going to do. Every single day, you're going to write 2, 2, 2, 2 on it with a box next to each 2. Every 2 glasses you drink, you check off that box."

The patient did just that. The patient started to notice improvements. He began to start being able to walk when before, walking was a painful task. He noticed he was also losing weight. As the months went by, things were improving very well. Before he knew it, he was beginning to have the ability to run. He went back to the doctor and said "Doctor, I may have to go to the bathroom more often with all that water but that's nothing! I'm able to run now when I couldn't even walk." The doctor was happy. A year had gone by and the patient had lost 30 lbs. He even became a trainer. Karro, maybe it's water you need.

Warning: More ranting coming up. If you're sick of my complaining, don't read the following.

I'm currently looking for a way to report Dr. Ohashi. He doesn't deserve to work in the health sector and no other patient should have to go through what I went through. I'm sure he wanted to intimidate me but I just wasn't scared. I remember one of my acting teachers said this very important statement and it stuck with me "When people are mean to you or try to start something with you, they see you as a threat." It may not be true in every single case but it's definitely given me strength and ammo in situations like this.

I'm sure Dr. Ohashi has sent patients in tears with an atrocious attitude like that. Especially patients who were already ill as it was. I'm sure he threatened death to some of them and he must've seen tears streaming down these people's faces and I'm sure he wanted the same reaction but it just doesn't work that way with me.

Also since I'm very tiny and I look young for my age, a lot of people think I'm some doormat and enjoy being rude to me after I've been polite to them. With Dr. Ohashi, I didn't even want to bother arguing with him because I knew he was an arrogant prick and I knew that if I was going to duke it out with him, we would be arguing for hours so I stayed artificially sweet when inside all I wanted to do was slaughter him. I know when to pick my battles and I enjoy having the ability to know how to handle different situations.

Anyways, about me being a doormat. A lot of people make this assumption that I'm this defenseless little girl and once I open my mouth people are shocked and they back off. I've had random strangers make rude comments about me and I turn around and bitch them out so hard that they don't even stand near me and if I happen to be walking near them, they begin to panic and actually clear my path. Most of the time, when I have a problem (mostly when it's when people who work and deal with people all the time) I always start polite. You just can't get anywhere when you are immediately rude--well in some cases, you need to be rude but generally, of course you should never just start out rude. If the person responds to me rudely, I try to get an instant feel for what their personality is.

One time when a bunch of people and I were waiting for the bus during rush hour, the bus came 15 minutes late. We are all very understanding if there was an accident or traffic. Some of us were freaking out that we were going to be late but we didn't want to make it a big deal. So we let the bus driver off the hook. The second day he did the same thing. We all figured it out that it wasn't traffic. From the mall to the bus stop, it is hardly busy and the driver leaves every half hour on the dot so there is no reason for a driver to be 15 minutes late 2 days in a row.

People were getting pissed off. I was getting pissed also because I hated being late for school, plus people can lose their jobs if they are late for 2, 3 days in a row. The people at the bus stop wanted me to ask the driver to come earlier. I have no idea why these grown adults didn't have the guts but I was definitely going to ask the driver to come early. The driver comes (after waiting forever) and I got in, politely said "Excuse me, sir, but can you please come earlier next time?" He snapped "No!" to me and my blood was stewing. I go "oh ok", putting on my doormat act. Once again, I'm not going to argue and waste time with the driver when I'm already late for school. So as soon as I got home, I called up the transportation office and reported his ass. The next day, he was nowhere to be found.

I sound like a big bitch but it annoys me to no end when you are working to serve the community and not only are you not doing your job properly but also you are making other people's lives harder. I don't like to start things with people. My goal in life is not to pick fights. I just don't appreciate it when I am polite and respectful and get garbage treatment in return. Nobody likes that. I don't tolerate it either. I tolerated a lot of that crap in high school and once I got out I vowed to myself never to put up with shit again.

I find it funny because I feel as if I'm a backstabber to these workers(not to my friends--backstabbing your friends is not good)because I'm really polite when I ask for something and sometimes I stay polite when the person was nothing but rude and then I turn around and destroy them (ok, maybe not destroy but you know what I mean )

There was this other time when I was at an employment office and a man who was working there was snapping at me the entire time. So I knew being polite was just going to allow him to continue. I began to yell at him and go "LISTEN, I DON'T HAVE A JOB, I HAVE BILLS TO PAY AND I AM DESPERATE TO MAKE ENDS MEET!" I yelled at him loud enough for all the people in the room to look up from their magazines and the employment binders and see what was happening at the desk. I saw this look of sadness in his eyes and he became much more sympathetic and helpful.

Sorry everyone. Just purging all the anger I'm experiencing. I feel like a drama queen but at the same time I need to take my feelings out. Don't mind the constant complaining and stories these days. hahah

[karro]

fUx0r said:

well, as canadians you're still lucky. we have to pay for our shity medical services. at least yours is free. haha.

The threatments I need for my lowback are not cover by the healing system in Canada. I need psysiotherapy or an osteophate or acupuncture or a new bed or shit likes that. For lowback nothing are cover and they need you to get at least 20 hernies before to operate. So maybe if I would have been in usa and pay for my first night hospital sejour, the price would have been much the same and now I would be effective.

[karro]

Chastity said:

Damn right. I'm so grateful for that. I was watching the Real World Chicago's season (yeah, I'm sure some of you are gagging ) and one of the roomates had all these health problems and these huge medical bills and she was always sobbing about the fact that she couldn't afford them. I believe an x ray is a thousand dollars from what I learned on the show. I actually felt bad for her and she was the bitchiest one (probably with good reason now that I think of it) I believe health care should be free. Then again the US tends to enjoy putting their priorities into other things. After all, they would rather fund the war and waste precious dollars that could be going to be much more substantial things.

to sue medics its really complicated. My father and I thought of sueing the hospital I went ( so imagine how bad I was threaten there..). So I informed myself. I have a friend who got an accident when she was about 12 and her parents sued the hospitals in chicoutimi. So first you need a lawyers specialist of medecine. To get an expertise its about 1000$ first time you meet him. But hospitals are all together, if one medecine got sued they will all take his/her side. My friend needed another hospital expertise so they went to another city. There everyone knew their name and the story so all doctors refused to see them. Same thing in montreal. So she would have need to go to USA to get to have another expertise and that had already costed her parents 12 000$ to get her mouth fine. So they just forget it and so I did. I had already another 1000$ court cause to pay cause of this arse police that thraumatised me and that made me have this lowback injury. But dont worry I finally won this process.

Karro, I never felt back pain until I was at work and the new boss had made me carry these super heavy boxes (everyone else on the staff thought the boss was psycho) and that was my first experience with back pain. Not fun! My sister told me this true story about this one guy who went to see his doctor. He was very overweight and all his joints hurt and he was never able to excercise. He said "Doctor, I tried everything, nothing is working." The doctor said "I have this theory. Do you drink 8 glasses of water a day?"

The patient replied "No, I don't."

"Well, this is what you're going to do. Every single day, you're going to write 2, 2, 2, 2 on it with a box next to each 2. Every 2 glasses you drink, you check off that box."

The patient did just that. The patient started to notice improvements. He began to start being able to walk when before, walking was a painful task. He noticed he was also losing weight. As the months went by, things were improving very well. Before he knew it, he was beginning to have the ability to run. He went back to the doctor and said "Doctor, I may have to go to the bathroom more often with all that water but that's nothing! I'm able to run now when I couldn't even walk." The doctor was happy. A year had gone by and the patient had lost 30 lbs. He even became a trainer. Karro, maybe it's water you need.

You cant imagine the amount of water I drink everyday. I drink all the time. I have a no-end thirst since im young. But I know it can play in your health and so the way you breath, the way you move and such. That is why I started yoga even if im not really able to do cause of the pain and the risk of another injury. and I do mediation to stabilize my breathing. I take care of every postition I take either up or lying in my bed. Its depends of the day. Its just that since last september the pain raised such the first moment of the accident and I tried everything but in vain this time. Its just weird. I think its something I need to understand first before to heal. That is probably related to the thraumatism of this police. Anyway, I will start psychotherapy next monday. We will see. The 4th I see since this incident. Hope this one would be able to help me this time.